xanga, keep my account.   I know I don't update.. or even use it at all, but I wanna be able to login someday (be it 10 years from now) and just look at some of my old convos/entries with Reyavie, Ryan, Kerri, and even Brie or whatever. I wanna be able to just read over them, laugh, smile, and just remember the fun times of middle school. After all, there were some really great times back on here... *reminisces* And I've missed all those people for years now, although none have kept in touch.

But I'm on to more important things, and yeah, even after reading a small, uneducated comment on a prior friend's page about me, I won't get angry.. or retaliate, or snap back, or even bring any attention to it. I've grown up and learned things, and one of those things is... children are children, just as bygones are bygones. It's all good, and no hostility needs to come out of my mouth just because of the ridiculousness coming out of yours.

Um... while I'm here, I might as well update. (Only came back b/c I got a email from xanga warning me that i "will have my site removed if I don't update" or something. O_o)

Well, Xanga, recently I did get my permit.. and got a car, actually. ^_^ Black, Toyota Corolla. 2001. Oh, and it's got a really sexy, silver "Shadray" name plate on the front bumper.

Also, I've met this girl who's really really really awesome in just about every way...  And one of things  about her that amazed me the most was how she goes through so much (including stuff like physical abuse, paternal molestation, and several other things that could EASILY land a man in jail)... but then you look at her spirit, and you wonder how it can be so positive and uplifting.  Made me realize that I was nobody special in my own problems, and had no real reason to consider.. suicide or anything. 

i mean, hey. it didn't change me thinking about it, or the clinical depression that i allegedly have had for months, but it was still a big realization dammit.

Oh. And she replaced the spot of ..that certain somebody who used to excite me and piss me off (at the same time) more than anyone. Who I recently learned that I never really loved. --or else i'd still love her ass right now...and I can't say that I give a damn about her at all anymore.

uh.. oh. And, Xanga, i's looking for a job that I can keep throughout the school year.  Right now Pathmark might be close to accepting me, but dont know for sure yet

and that brings us to today, June 18 2008. (I think.) um... nothing's happening, just visiting some family in FL.  I do have some things i wanna vent out about the familial issues i have down here, but it would be kinda tasteless, dont you think? AFter all... before today, I hadn't even said two words to you for years.

OH! And TRUNX IS DYING!  Yeah its horrible.. although he's not actually "dying" per se, he's been having a lot of problems lately. And he's always been a rather sickly dog; he has Pink Eye, BAD allergies to "something we don't know", skin issues, mysterious unidentified growths on his body, Restless Leg Syndrome, and now maybe cancer. 

sucks, xanga.

and so, yeah. Anyway, I'm ending this, and intend to copy and paste it to my TsuyoiKenkaku xanga site too... b/c I'm NOT retyping all this. So...yeah, I guess to rap it all up you could just say i've been doing okay. I mean, being able to even look out the window should be enough to satisfy me; I could, after all, have died before turning 16. Then I wouldn't be able to appreciate ANYTHING good about life.

Whatever though.

Oh and the next time you'll hear from me will prob. be in a year or so.... I'll be a senior by then. O_o